Baby Casendra Faith

Peter Laugheed Hospital, Calgary
Sunday February 17th, 2008
8lbs. 7 oz. 1:14pm

No epidural, no time, no doctor, NO PROBLEM!

Mom and baby doing great, Gramma got to be in the delivery room, kids and grampa got to see her an hour after she was born. Welcome to the family little one.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all! There are no photos with this post as my personal christmas hasn't happened yet, the kids and I will do ours on New Years so I'll update again then.

The past two weeks have been a little rough, sickness (lost 10 pounds in 2 days!) and ex issues created a less than ideal pre chrismas mood. At one point I was sobbing uncontrollably while sitting in the dark on the couch (no one home thank goodness)

But , it is always darkest before the dawn and the dawn does come. If it ever doesn't then we'll be in a better place and it won't matter.

I am feeling better physically, expressed some of my frustrations (albeit loudly and with some course language), spent some quality time with my sisters and brothers and am feeling more hopeful about everything.

About my personal life...well, I'm not a speed dater! I was supposed to have my second date (different guy) on Sunday evening in Calgary but cancelled because I wasn't feeling well. But we email and talk on the phone once in a while...its still strange I have to say and sometimes I wonder if its really worth it but for now I press on...slowly but still on..... I'll keep you posted.

Beauty

My happy place

Baby at the beach

just past her in the darkness is the neverending expanse of sand and sea. there is nothing quite like a cuddle and bedtime story with the sound of smell of the sea in the background.

The cure for everything is salt water

Just let your cares float away in the sound of the waves, the smell of the salty air and the rhythm of the tides.

Christmas?!

This is an older christmas picture....our family has its own traditions which oddly enough include everyone blindfolded in the dark crawling around on the floor trying to put a flashlight together before you are killed by the Destroyer! A favourite for all ages!

This year is actually going to be a little different, Mom and Dad are heading to Nebraska for a long overdue visit and to meet their newest grandson. My kids are at Derek's from the 21st to the 30th so I"ve told work I can do extra shifts, Amy and Garron will be driving Ren to the airport on boxing day. We are getting together for a family dinner on the 23rd but that is it for plans this year.

Personally, my house is decorated and ready but I am not at all, just don't have any brilliant ideas this year. I have made it a practice for the kids and I to do something together instead of exchanging a lot of gifts but I'm drawing a blank this year.

This past week (actually 2 weeks) have been spent struggling with illness, and the ever present stress of finances. Just tired out and discouraged I guess. Needless to say that has also affected my view of my personal life...just not really interested in doing the work required to develop and explore new relationships. Plus I watched a great movie "Georgia Rules" that makes me rethink the whole idea of a stepfather! If you haven't seen it ---do it!

on the other hand my sweet and adorable daughter has it firmly in her mind that a 'new daddy" is the answer to everything and is quite vocal in her search....I have committed to praying about it with her but have amended the request to "another adult to help" this can include friendly grandmotherly types and takes some pressure off me.

Well, that's a short recap from me....I hope this finds you all well, ready for the holidays and enjoying life to the full. Amanda